I have a friend who got her RN license two years ago and she made close to $40K a year just regular full time. She made more this past year working nights and said she could make even more as a traveling nurse.

My friend worked in billing or something similar in a hospital for years and was treated like crap and paid crap, and finally decided enough was enough. You should do it, you have the smarts, nothing is stopping you. Go for it.

RYN: You're right, it does seem like yesterday that I was writing about my mardi gras trip yesterday. That means you and I are getting old buddy! And I totally agree, the school girl rocks, I want her too. I bet half the guys at mardi gras wanted her.

Y yes POF!!!

Or it could be you have no desire to really look at yourself in totality and choose to see things on the surface a gf, joblessness, low on cash very orderinary..... I think this is a bit more tunnel vision. Please take no offense to this, you just choose to remain on the surface. Don't worry many people choose to stay there because it is comfortable. 

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What an ass.

[all_alone631]

You know, I've read your entries for awhile now and I can feel a lot of what you are going through. You sound like you've wanted to do something with your life but had no idea what, and now despair of ever finding what you're supposed to do, if anything. So, this may be a long shot, but I'll throw it out anyway:

You're apparently in a position where you have nothing to lose, which means you're totally free to do anything no matter how wild or stupid or unrealistic. So, if there's anything you wanted to do, now is the time to say "f*** it," and just do it. And it just might be what you were meant to do your whole life. I had gone the business route trying to be sensible and realistic, got a nice business world job which I hated, but it wasn't until I got fired that I realized I was floundering, and as I was ready to sink under waves, I finally understood what I wanted to do with my life -- writing/art -- which I had ignored because it wasn't realistic or sensible. I'm now poor, but I like what I do, and I am no longer miserable every day of my life. I have no idea if there's anything you wanted to do but put aside for whatever reason, but from reading your entry, now is the time to throw caution to the winds. You're gonna die anyway, why not have some fun on the way?

Wow, a lot of points in this entry. I was really focused on the financial independence part, because I think about how it'd be nice to do what you loved rather than be a wage slave doing what you hated, and how you realy don't need that much money to do it compared to the amount that's out there, but getting that amount is so freaking hard. I've given up a lot so I can write and paint, but i still have to work, and I think how little I'd need to be financially independent compared to the trillions of dollars that are in our economy, yet how elusive those dollars are (I also consider how sad that little sh*ts like Paris Hilton are born into millions while more worthy people have nothing.) Even a few hundred thousand dollars and I could quit my job and live off the interest and do what I want, more or less. But to get that money most of us have to give up the idea of being a free spirit and be a work slave for years first. Strange how that works, be a slave just so one day you can be a free spirit.

''I do appreciate the modern conveniences of these times, but sometimes a man/woman needs to go back to the very basics to reclaim themselves I think.''

Totally agree with you on that.

*laughs like crazy at the fat family*

The ex girlfriend...you must be f***ing nuts!

The first week the National Lottery ran in the UK, like thousands of others I hopefully paid a pound and chose my numbers. I won a tenner, so congrats for equalling my biggest win to date... Hope lunch with the friend was enjoyable!

This entry reminds me of a saying my friend used to come out with all the time...

''Sarcasm is the lowest form of wit. If you had as much sh*t as you have wit, you'd be constipated''

While I used to love watching the theatrics on the Springer show, I soon tired of the oddballs coming on relating every one of their sexual exploits to to the world. I found the black women were worse, you would think given the prejudice they encounter on a daily basis because of the colour of their skin that they would do as much as they could to improve themselves but nope...you'd find them on the Springer show, waving their hands about, screeching their ebonics and doing the chicken neck thing on national tv. I'm not racist at all but I hate the way so many of them seem to have no self respect, whatsoever.

Most people in the UK haven't got A/C, so next time you're sweltering hot and flick yours on, spare a thought for us sweaty old Brit's who have to make do with oscilating fans or simply any breeze blowing in through the open windows

Those people you see buying the nice homes and furniture are probably so up to their eyeballs in debt that they will spend the rest of their lives working like slaves to pay for it. If they get in a financial rut, that dream home will be the first thing at risk if the mortgage isn't paid on time. Who envies THAT? Not me, that's for sure. Are your parents from Europe or are they traveling/working over there?

Sorry you're going through the emotional mill right now. Me too today, just one of those f***ing days eh?

Well my suggestion is to go and find someone else to play with for awhile, and if she ditches you then you have someone else to distract you. It sounds like she's giving you a load of bull, so don't let her ups and downs determine what you're going to do.

You should be able to collect, you can't collect if you quit, but being fired should be ok. But maybe this is what you need. Getting fired a few years ago was one of the best things that ever happened to me, because I was hooked on the good income and benefits. But, once I was free of that middle-class attachments, I was able to go after what i really wanted.

It wasnt all easy, there was a huge sense of relief for me because I hated that f***ing job, but then there was a sense of failure, and I wondered if I was a loser, although I knew I wasn't suited for the job. That was when I realized that I was sort of freed from the prison of middle-class values and could do something different with my life, take a detour, and thats when I made the leap into the arts. Granted, I'm poor, but I'm happy, and that sets me apart from 90% of the world.

In one sense you've been given a gift (even though unemployment sucks), so I hope you look at it that way, and figure out what you really want. You obviously didn't want your last job, so what the f***, take a leap at something. You might as well, someone has already pushed you off the cliff.

I'm sorry to hear about that, but I'm glad to see you're being very reasonable and realistic. Many people get pretty freaked if they were in your situation.

Take care

~Vanessa

"If you think that you are living in a free country, you are an ignorant a**h***, with your head in the sand."

This is why I like reading you, you're hilarious, and you don't f*** around! I've missed your rants, where ya been? And by the way, I feel you on the money thing, I've always been poor, and unless I sell a novel and get rich, I always will be. Knowing that is depressing.

I totally agree with you.

Funny how blacks call whites "white boy" in a similarly derogotory manner and that is somehow OK.   

Its nice that you stick up for you're friends i think thats very cool! Glad to see everything is okay with you at the moment

amy

I know victoria is f***ing her husbands brain out, but she seems to really like you. Women are sensitive, if she found out you were fuking someone who meant nothing to you she might get annoyed. I guess its different if the person ur f***ing is you'r husband

o i dont know

Here's to freedom of speech indeed!

*raises cuppa* I'll keep a close eye on the news in the next couple of weeks for town in America being swamped in smeg!

f***ing technology eh? lol@ this entry. Hope everything goes your way tomorrow! And big brother...from websites like MDD, to government dept's, there's always some f***er trying to tell us what's best for us or what to do. f*** em all I say!

My husband took on my eldest when we got together, she was 5 at the time. Our different ideas about parenting caused a lot of friction between us. I'm happy for you that you have this lady you always fantasised about in your life but all I'd say to you having been there and done that is...make sure it's really what you want before you agree to it. Looking forward to seeing how this unfolds

Erection problems must be so hard to deal with. Having experienced it from the other aspect, it sucks and makes you question whether or not you're attractive to the guy attempting (and failing) to f*** you. I've heard the ''It's not you'' speech but it doesn't offer much comfort with a limp penis slapping at your inner thigh. You gave me an insigt into it from the mans point of view. Thank you for your honesty. I hope you manage to sort this crap out, why not see a doctor? The embarassment of admitting you have erection problems can't be as bad as wanting to f*** a hottie and not being able to unless you're full of viagra, surely? Take care!

The best thing for you to do is get yourself checked out. You may have high blood pressure or some other problem such as diabetes and not even know it. Get it fixed, then the good times will roll. Frankly, at 40 you're kinda young for these problems. And in the meantime, make you life easy: Get a rooster ring. They work (even when half-drunk!)

You know I did this thing too, and I made the responses so deep it took me a long time. I posted...and it asked me to log in.

I think I'll just live off your experience in answering this thing.

If she wants sex, I say go for it. You didn't worry about Hot Chick's fiance, and that went well. But, Ithink you should seriously consider backing off emotionally, and even dating (and not just f***ing) other people, until she gets divorced. It's easier to stay put than to take chance on something new, especially if you have kids.

“I don’t think that I ever tingled like that.” She told me earlier today.

Yeah well, it didn’t come easy baby. I took a hundred milligrams of Viagra to help cover for the nerves.''

Damn, that made me laugh. Your honesty is admirable. I'm not judging this woman Vic by asking such a question. I've lived in an abusive and crappy marriage for a long time so it's always interesting to see why other women do the same thing as I foolishly did for a long time (divorce is on the cards for this lady and about f***ing time too)

Feel sorry that her night was ruined by him showing up and bad mouthing her. Maybe you should get up and clean that place of yours, and show her what she could have. Good luck to ya matey!